{"id":2764,"date":"2012-09-25T21:46:07","date_gmt":"2012-09-25T19:46:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogg.fumei.se\/?p=2764"},"modified":"2012-09-25T21:46:07","modified_gmt":"2012-09-25T19:46:07","slug":"sorgens-fagel","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogg.fumei.se\/?p=2764","title":{"rendered":"Sorgens f\u00e5gel"},"content":{"rendered":"

Det har g\u00e5tt n\u00e4stan tv\u00e5 veckor sedan min v\u00e4n (och kollega) Lena gick bort i cancer. Jag har fortfarande sv\u00e5rt att f\u00f6rst\u00e5 det. Hon var s\u00e5 glad, livfull och k\u00e4rleksfull, hade alltid n\u00e5got gott att s\u00e4ga om alla, t\u00e4nkte s\u00e4llan p\u00e5 sig sj\u00e4lv, \u00e4ven under dessa sista m\u00e5nader n\u00e4r hon var s\u00e5 sjuk.<\/p>\n

Allt gick s\u00e5 fort. Ena dagen var hon sjukskriven f\u00f6r inflammation i musklerna i rygg och armar, n\u00e4sta fick jag h\u00f6ra av en annan kollega att Lena f\u00e5tt diagnosen cancer! Den natten var det sv\u00e5rt att t\u00e4nka p\u00e5 jobbet.
\n\u00c5tta korta men \u00e4nd\u00e5 s\u00e5 l\u00e5nga m\u00e5nader k\u00e4mpade hon mot den f\u00f6rj\u00e4vliga, f\u00f6rf\u00e4rliga sjukdom som cancer \u00e4r, innan hennes kropp till slut sa ifr\u00e5n. Under hela denna tid hade hon sina barn och sin barndomsv\u00e4n Angelica vid sin sida.
\nDen 12:e Augusti p\u00e5 kv\u00e4llen somnade hon in med sina n\u00e4rmaste och k\u00e4raste runt omkring sig.<\/p>\n

Nu vet jag att hon m\u00e5r bra, att hon inte har ont l\u00e4ngre, och vi m\u00e5r b\u00e4ttre n\u00e4r vi vet att hon slipper lida, \u00e4ven om vi s\u00f6rjer v\u00e5r v\u00e4n oerh\u00f6rt mycket.
\nMen det \u00e4r l\u00e4ttare att s\u00f6rja nu, och det \u00e4r l\u00e4tt att le och skratta \u00e5t minnena. F\u00f6r s\u00e5 hade Lena velat att det var, det \u00e4r jag s\u00e4ker p\u00e5.<\/p>\n

Ibland t\u00e4nker jag att jag ska ber\u00e4tta n\u00e5got f\u00f6r henne n\u00e4sta g\u00e5ng jag tr\u00e4ffar henne, eller att jag ska ringa henne, f\u00f6r det var s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge sen vi pratade, men s\u00e5 kommer jag p\u00e5 mig sj\u00e4lv, och s\u00e5 gr\u00e5ter jag. Igen. N\u00e4r jag minst anar det blir jag p\u00e5mind om henne, varje dag p\u00e5 jobbet, n\u00e4r Robin s\u00e4ger n\u00e5t p\u00e5 trollh\u00e4ttem\u00e5l, n\u00e4r jag h\u00f6r vissa l\u00e5tar spelas, ser vissa bilder…och framf\u00f6rallt minns jag Lena n\u00e4r jag ser J.<\/p>\n

F\u00f6r det \u00e4r ju i f\u00f6rsta hand tack vare Lena som jag och J idag \u00e4r ett par. Det var jag och Lena som var p\u00e5 puben den d\u00e4r kv\u00e4llen n\u00e4r han p\u00f6tsligt stod d\u00e4r, det var Lena som praktiskt taget tvingade mig att stanna kvar och forts\u00e4tta umg\u00e5s med honom ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r att ta sista bussen hem med henne. S\u00e5 TACK Lena f\u00f6r min k\u00e4rlek!<\/p>\n

Det finns s\u00e5 mycket man vill s\u00e4ga n\u00e4r n\u00e5gon man k\u00e4nner och \u00e4lskar d\u00f6r. Jag vet inte riktigt hur jag ska uttrycka det jag vill s\u00e4ga, men jag hittade en vacker dikt ( p\u00e5 engelska) som jag tycker st\u00e4mmer ganska bra:<\/p>\n

The sun still rises at the dawn of each day<\/em>
\nBirds, they\u2019re flying in the sky as before<\/em>
\nThe clock still ticks as the hours pass by<\/em>
\nHow can that be – when you\u2019re no more?<\/em><\/p>\n

Never again will I walk through your door<\/em>
\nOr sit at your table with a cup of tea<\/em>
\nI may never hear your laughter again<\/em>
\nBut in my heart I know, you\u2019re still close to me<\/em><\/p>\n

You\u2019re still so vivid, so very clear<\/em>
\nBefore me, in my mind\u2019s eye<\/em>
\nBubbly and cheerful, so full of life<\/em>
\nYour presence, I\u2019ll forever hold high<\/em><\/p>\n

You fought hard and brave my dear friend<\/em>
\nWith courage and optimism you started each day<\/em>
\nPositive thinking was always your motto<\/em>
\nNegative thoughts, they never came your way<\/em><\/p>\n

Rest assured dear friend, I promise you<\/em>
\nYou\u2019ll never be forgotten, even when long gone<\/em>
\nI\u2019ll cherish the time we had together<\/em>
\nAnd as the years pass by, your memory lives on<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a0\"\"<\/a>
\n<\/a><\/p>\n

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Det har g\u00e5tt n\u00e4stan tv\u00e5 veckor sedan min v\u00e4n (och kollega) Lena gick bort i cancer. Jag har fortfarande sv\u00e5rt att f\u00f6rst\u00e5 det. Hon var s\u00e5 glad, livfull och k\u00e4rleksfull, hade alltid n\u00e5got gott att s\u00e4ga om alla, t\u00e4nkte s\u00e4llan p\u00e5 sig sj\u00e4lv, \u00e4ven under dessa sista m\u00e5nader n\u00e4r hon var s\u00e5 sjuk. Allt gick…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[47],"tags":[227,229,226,228,230,225],"class_list":["post-2764","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-vardagsliv","tag-cancer","tag-dod","tag-lena","tag-sjukdom","tag-sorg","tag-vanner"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p3qko4-IA","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":5103,"url":"https:\/\/blogg.fumei.se\/?p=5103","url_meta":{"origin":2764,"position":0},"title":"\u00c4lskade mamma!","author":"M :)","date":"2022-03-08","format":false,"excerpt":"Det h\u00e4r \u00e4r min mamma \u2764\ufe0fMina br\u00f6ders mamma och min halvsysters bonusmamma. 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